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February 25, 2008
Bewteen the worm and the peacock
Someone did say to me the other day, that they didn't feel intelligent enough to comment on all these amazing blog contributions. I know how they feel. But I'm then thinking:
'Who put such a negative and depressed self-image in you? Because you sure weren't born with it!'
And then I'm thinking,
'Wait a minute. Was it just arrogance on their part?' You know, 'I'm too good for all that blog tittle-tattle, but I'll pretend I'm not good enough.'
On the face of it, it can be hard to tell the difference between low self-esteem and arrogance.
But actually, its not hard at all. All arrogance is low-self esteem. But not all low self-esteem is arrogance. Arrogance is a symptom of the condition of poor self-worth; just one of the masks it sometimes wears. Sometimes low-self esteem acts like its a worm. At other times it postures absurdly like a peacock on speed.
So comment, you bastard! Don't let the past shackle your beautiful and entirely wonderful soul. Between the worm and the peacock is your own particular genius, smouldering like a fire on a winter's night.
Posted by Mr Bojangles at February 25, 2008 11:21 AM
Comments
arrogance and low self esteem are mutually exclusive.arrogance occurs as a result of continuous postive experiences--possibly at the expense of others but not always.low self esteem occurs as a result of emotional and physical abuse from the World.
Posted by: alia at March 8, 2008 08:43 PM
Hi Mr Bojangles,
Your message has got me thinking because, like you, I have wondered why you don't get more comments on your blog. What you say is partly true but I think it is more complicated than that.
Most people (if they're like me) read your blog at the end of a busy and sometimes stressful day to get a bit of 'soul soup' - there's a spiritual void in modern life (sorry about the cliche) and for us, your site helps to fill it. We are reading and we are responding but not in a verbal way.
I think many of your loggers on arethinkers and in normal life quite eloquent, but their 'spiritual literacy' is pretty basic and when they compose something it falls short of their expectations (and maybe would yours?)so they don't send it - it probably never even makes it into print. As an example, a few weeks ago I composed just such a message to Shelliz - it sounded pretty banal but with the words of her poem 'Does it Matter?' still drifting through my head, I sent it anyway because I wanted to tell her that I just love her poems! I think you're right to nag us to send in more comments, but we need to know that it's OK if they're not 'deep and meaningful.'
I've read 'The Beautiful Life' and go back to it frequently - what for? - sorry, I can't easily put it into words, everything I come up with doesn't quite say it!! Amongst its wisdom, you come across a bit as already 'one of the angels' - I like this blog as it shows your humanity - you are still a fellow traveller, albeit a lot further down the road than most of us - and of course, you DO have the words!!
Kate
Posted by: Kate at March 8, 2008 03:32 PM