June 01, 2008
On saturday I found myself sobbing in a friend's arms, Why?
I was crying for the mother's holding that I never received and I was again trying to come to an acceptance of the damage that the 'mothering' I had been given, had left me with.
When my mother is about I am constantly scanning and waiting for the attack to come,the fear overtakes my whole being effecting my movement and breathing.
I know I need to accept what is and move on but it is hard because inside me a baby is still crying out.
Baby needs warmth and comfort
Baby needs to be held securely and kept safe
Baby needs to be sung the lullaby and stroked to sleep
Baby needs to play and discover new things
Baby needs nourishment to grow strong
Baby needs to feel loved and special
I still hear baby crying out
Posted by Shelliz at June 1, 2008 05:44 PM