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August 03, 2008
Watching my own madness
I am watching myself become unsettled by the 'idea' of a possible set of future events which are unlikely to happen and even if they did, they are not in my power to control.
They have managed to take over my dreams and today I wake fearful with a heavy knot of sadness inside my stomach, my mind once let loose takes these fears and they spill over into my day dreams, which are now playing out in the background. A never ending cycle of baiting and tormenting myself has begun. I realise I am using so much energy trying to prepare myself for an awful event that isn't even real!
The true I is watching and laughing at the madness which is taking place.
The true I knows that the only place to live is in the present.
The true I knows that to live life fully I need to be floating free allowing all things to flow through me.
As the true I becomes stronger I feel myself begin to settle and I hear a voice
'Be peaceful Beautiful One,
Stop fighting,
You don't need to change a thing,
Allow all feelings to surface,
Send the judge and the jury home,
They are not needed,
Give yourself some healing time,
One day you will be ready,
To walk free from this yo yo life,
Meanwhile relax in my arms,
And let me kiss your wounds.'
Posted by Shelliz at August 3, 2008 02:47 PM